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So I've just got back from Grandma's funeral. My eyes are red raw from crying to much.
Goddamn Funerals.
But everything turned out better than expected in the way of she hated all her brothers and sisters except for Sis. c:
A part of me was expecting them all to get into an argument about one thing or another.: But I'm glad it didn't. And yano it was cool seeing members of my family who I've never met before.
So aside from Gwen turning up and having to be centre of attention yet again... Everything was fine... And I'm happy.

I never went to see Grandma when she was in the funeral home last week... I couldn't bring myself to do it. She's dead for fuck's sake. It freaked me out enough the fact that she was in a coffin only a few feet away from us in the crem, let alone going to actually see her up close. I'd much prefere to remember her when she was alive kkthnx.

I think... my grandad's gonna be ok until Christmas - that's gonna be the hardest part seen as we always go round there on Boxing Day for a buffet... But he'll manage. My mum's going round there every day and we all go round there for tea... So, he'll be fine. [:

As for me, well... I dunno how I feel at the moment.
A part of me wants to cry some more, but I'm so sick of crying now. I just need to get on with my life. Got college work and a part time job to be getting on with.

I'll be updating a little be more now...Seen as for the last two weeks I've been doing bugger all. :>
Hopefully I'll be able to get my sleeping patterns back on track as well, lol.
^{And yano maybe get to work on those requests too, lol .__.}

I also wanna thank everyone who's comforted me over the past two weeks - It really meant a lot to me, knowing I have friends online and offline who care so much about me <3
Much love for you gaiz! <3333

-xxx-